On reflecting on the title, it seems pertinent to share one or two of my experiences during these past few months where I had the choice of either going into reaction and anxiousness or to remain in stillness within my body. It appears to me there has been a developing intensity around us, a general feeling in the air, indeed in the space that surrounds us all – that begs attention and understanding.
What is it about ‘stillness’ that had sometimes eluded me during these past months? It seemed that with no amount of ‘trying’ to be in this known arena of ‘stillness’, was I able to appease the reactions and anxiousness that I would often feel in my body.
What choices was I making, wittingly or unwittingly? Where was my commitment to awareness, to the divine connection that is ceaselessly available to all of us all of the time?
As I am currently experiencing and am developing my willingness to surrender to the wonder and magic of my body, I am once again gathering the understanding that it is all up to me and the choices I make about the energy that I allow into my body. I know I can either come back to the stillness in my body or I can go into emotional reaction and anxiousness.
Several recent events have caused me to look more deeply within, reading with as much honesty and transparency that I can as a student of life and as a student of The Way of The Livingness.
Despite a fall a few months ago that saw me flying – a little like in Superman mode – arms outstretched before landing on hard concrete, there seemed to be some resistance to the wisdom that was being laid out bare for me to pay attention to. This fall was indeed a great physical jolt and it appeared it was needed so as to shake me to the core. Perhaps, it was to shake me from the straight jacket of the mind, the belief systems and patterns that I may have still been dwelling on at some level. Was I oscillating, meandering all over the place, believing that being in stillness now and again was sufficient?
I was becoming more aware that my fall was the wake-up call needed for me to be more constantly in a state of bringing my body back to stillness.
I found that opportunities to learn are never far away and it would seem that every opportunity given to me was there to remind me that every moment of our every day is as important as each other to consistently be returning to the well of knowingness deep within – that place that we reach during an Esoteric Healing session – that place of deep connection and stillness. It seems that no matter our circumstance, challenge, difficulty or experience we can learn from it by seeing it as an opportunity offered for us to return to our natural state which is stillness and wellbeing.
I discovered that I could indeed be even experiencing a level of stillness after an unexpected event involving my car. My newly purchased motor vehicle seemingly felt to be pushed by a force from behind that found me bouncing back off the steel mesh safety barrier in a multilevel parking space.
A little shaken, but not in reaction, I found a depth of stillness that beckoned me to read the truth behind the event that just took place. Had complacency, familiarity or comfort been my companions while endeavouring to park my vehicle, instead of being in a state of consistent presence, awareness and stillness within? This was something that I needed to ponder on more deeply.
So the opportunities continue to be presented in many and varied ways that I found reminded me of the profundity and the calling for stillness within my body. I am learning that whilst in motion, e.g. volunteering in a local hospital in the Oncology and Renal Department, and when I am working in the kitchen area preparing the morning teas and lunches, serving copious cups of tea etc., I can still maintain a level of stillness and gentleness as I work busily attending to the patients’ needs.
Whilst I can feel the sense of intensity and anxiousness within the hospital wards, it is not impacting on me, or the depth of stillness I can bring as I move gently and purposefully around the wards.
I am now very much appreciating immensely the opportunity I have to attend presentations that show me how to bring a deeper connection and awareness to my body. This connection brings out the magical fluidity of the movements of our organs, and deepens the feeling that all of us have within our bodies as it symbiotically flows and moves in sync with the particles of the universe like a beautiful dance of the elements.
I am learning to surrender more deeply to this endless well of stillness in my body.
Roberta H., Australia