Retiring from life, or retiring from work? Many people after a lifetime of work find it hard to adapt and gradually give themselves up to inertia and lack of purpose. Others go in for a life just as busy with alternative activities and volunteering, which keeps them going. Here is an alternative suggestion.
Today’s living has been awesome and amazing because I have done just that.
There was nothing pressing in the day except an arrangement with my partner to go to the Wildlife Reserve together when we were ready. I rose early and joined my friend Jane’s pelvic floor session online. I focused deeply in this session and reached a place inside myself I had never been before.
Afterwards I felt a settlement in myself, and a stillness, so I took my stillness to the Bird Reserve rather than the other way around when I used to go there to seek the stillness.
It was a beautiful day. We found ourselves ready to leave at the same time and took the journey steadily. Noel drove, I was very aware of my body and allowing it to inform me of my feelings, movement and posture. I took my time to assemble whatever I needed for our walk around the lakes, and we set off.
What happened was truly amazing for me. It is a very still environment, especially on a day with no wind, and yet there is so much movement within it. Being in connection with my own stillness I was able to observe the movements of nature around me in a more intimate and totally connected way, how very often nothing seems to be happening but very subtly the scene in front of me is changing all the time.
As we were walking a path seemingly with “nothing much happening today” as one couple said to us as we passed them, we were listening to the non-stop sound of birds singing their Spring songs and saw hundreds of pale damsel flies of utmost delicacy, a peacock butterfly and many insects. There was a cormorant on the other side of the lake, swans and a grebe. Everything was teeming with life in its own rhythms, beautifully interweaving.
From my interior stillness I was so aware of every movement within the greater stillness of the whole.
For an hour we sat in a hide, just observing– within the stillness there was always motion. The pace was slow and almost imperceptible. You could be aware of birds in one place and the next time you looked for them they had moved somewhere else. It was like a slow dance as they responded to their needs and the environment. Occasionally swans or geese would take off with a flurry of faster motion and then everything would settle again.
I learned so much from observing this and was aware of the reflection it gave me. It kept coming to me again and again, the natural movement within space and time.
Two geese were swimming side by side, and we were so acutely tuned to the rhythm of nature that we both felt the vibration in our own bodies as they prepared to take off into flight in total synchronicity; we felt what they were communicating, they knew, we knew. Then there was the moment when two swans began their mating dance before turning away from each other. It was so brief we could have missed it, but by that time we were also so connected to each other we both saw it.
Then another couple walked into the hide and said there was nothing happening out there today. I wondered what they were expecting and guessed it was something sensational – some rare bird like a kingfisher…?
I realised how we go about life with so many expectations of what we want to see, something that gives us that ‘buzz’, and so we miss the precious simple moments that are there for us to experience all the time and give us a quiet joy.
All day I walked with this stillness inside me being aware of my movements, staying consciously present, never letting stray thoughts come in, and it felt exquisitely beautiful, and so much else came to me to be observed, I could not be bored for one moment. The day flowed; when we felt to eat, we stopped and ate, when we felt to go home, we returned to the van.
The reflection from the whole day brought home to me how possible it is to live this way every day in everything we do if we come from our inner Stillness.
I am WORKING at it every day. If I allow thoughts and emotions in I can still go into drive which can take me out of this place of connection with myself, whereas I can reconnect, whenever I choose to, with the heavenly feeling that I felt by the lake. The commitment to honouring my awareness, my sensitivity and my purpose is the way I can stay alive and vibrant till the day I die.
And now I ask you – what has this to do with retirement? My life from the outside looks like I am retired, doing nothing. I have no job, I do minimal volunteer work, but every day, wherever I go, I endeavour to connect with whoever I meet and bring all that I am to whatever I do and say. I might seem to have no particular purpose; you could say I have retired but, take this day I just lived, present with myself, aware, sensing, feeling, receiving, open to whatever occurred, that shows me I certainly have not retired from life. This is my purpose now, to stay in connection to myself, all that surrounds me, and the Universe.
There is no way I would have experienced this ‘heavenly way’ without the wisdom, teachings, and support from Serge Benhayon and all his family, the practitioners and students of Universal Medicine. I feel blessed and immensely enriched by my connection with the whole community, and also by my partner Noel who supports my purpose and is such an amazing man to walk in nature with, and I wish to express my huge appreciation and thanks to all.
Joan C., UK
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