On my favourite gorge walk recently, with steep cliffs and rocks going down to the water I saw two younger people snorkelling and swimming. I noticed two other women standing on the edge of the water also. I was wondering how did these ‘young ones’ – I am 66 – get down there? There were no stairs, paths, or any easy way visible to get down there.
The slight melancholic feeling and nostalgia for my younger years that arose left very soon. I asked myself ‘Well, where or what can stop me nowadays to get to where I want to go?’ (Not much, since I adjusted my ‘wants’ and fully accepted where my body is at, and what it can do.)
I have to add here that it was a process of healing, accepting and surrendering to where my body is at now. And I learned that not so much through ageing, but after several surgeries that limited the use of my right arm. I fell into a depression for a while because I was not able to work the land anymore and do heavy things with one arm. I guess the acceptance of that helps me now accepting ageing and that the body is not being able to do everything I want it to that I could do in younger years.
Supposedly I have Osteoporosis and that does not worry me a bit. I have a strong body (for my age) and move with as much conscious presence as I can. Meaning whenever I move, I am fully present in my body and aware of how I move. I don’t think of dinner or what I will do tomorrow or what I have done yesterday.
Now I am onto other adventures, physical ones as much as my body agrees to, but more and more internally now, feeling, exploring my inner world which I feel is connected with the outer – in a very expanded way – connected way out there with the stars, to the Universe, the energetic and Divine world – a great adventure.
And I simply don’t want or yearn to do physical things my body can’t do anymore. With regular exercising, after being very weakened from a big surgery, I feel strong and fit and can do a lot of things again physically. There are some limitations body-wise but I love and am happy in my physical body and where and on which adventures it can still take me – like going to see the pyramids in Egypt.
Well where else do I want to go now?
I want to get to know and live my real self, my essence and the Divinity I originate from. This may be my best adventure ever, where I find all I ever looked for on the outside and never found.
Ingrid L., Australia.
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