Through the work with animals I coincidentally met a student of The Way of the Livingness. An uncomfortable period in my life followed as I struggled to understand how to live a life true to myself and my essence. I found out more about who I was, and I could feel what was coming next – the giving up of ‘self’ to further help humanity. First, I had to find myself! I had lived by myself for a long time, but through the Way of the Livingness I met more like-minded people. During that time, I started participating in esoteric yoga classes, and having bodywork. While attending training workshops, I had the opportunity to give and receive healing sessions. Everything I did was helping me to settle into my body, and slowly I started to surrender and to enjoy just being me again.
On this path of return, I had met and worked with some beautiful people who lived in Australia. I had always been interested in how certain landscapes support us in our lives, and a few years ago I read a book which was an exploration into how Aboriginal people lived in the landscape known as the Outback, and how they passed down their culture by communicating to each other over vast distances. I felt the call to bail out of this small space I call home – England – and to launch myself into this vast space called Australia. In 2019 I was in a position to do something about that.
Coming from a small island, the United Kingdom, or, as we are fond of saying, the UK (which serves to make it seem even smaller), where our cultural traditions have left some heavy imprints for us to contend with, this amazing journey offered me so many reflections, and I received so much loving care from friends along the way. As soon as I landed in Melbourne I felt a sense of spaciousness and release from a heavy and dark cloak, as if I had been carrying it around with me for a long time. I enjoyed a journey of enrichment where I experienced many cities and spent some time in the Red Centre, the vastness of it was awesome. I learnt a lot more about the strength of community there, and how people welcomed and supported each other. The local authorities were recognising the Aboriginal people’s expertise in managing their sacred land with respect for the laws of nature, and were now allowing them to do that.
How can I take this sense of vast openness home with me, was my next question?
When I looked over the Blue Mountains I got the feeling of how grand they are. I had a similar feeling while in the Red Centre. Such reflections provided me with an awareness of my own grand multi-dimensionality. My experiences living and journeying with some of the most loving people I have ever met, informed me that space, and the love I sensed in that space, was also inside me.
Also in 2019, I had the good fortune of constellating with another student of The Way of the Livingness coming to share my house, and we began to build our relationship together. She is my opposite in many ways – very direct, talks quite a lot, is sensitive to impulses and acting immediately on them. We are working on a relationship course together to guide us and she has encouraged me to express myself in so many ways. She is also totally honest, which has allowed me to grow and blossom. Together we inspire each other to take things out into the community, with our different ways of writing and with offering a meditation group. In this last year I have been able to uncover and express my innate wisdom with this lady’s support.
Through embracing The Way of the Livingness, I have been able to find a settlement in my body, an increase in my body awareness and my clairsentience. My Australian journey opened up my awareness to the space I could feel inside me. The experience of being loved and cared for by the people there was so confirming for me in developing my love for myself. My love and trust in humanity is restored, and I can now live more of me, like the sensitive child I was.
Someone I know and love has often said, “You can’t do it on your own”. This is my learning, which will be on-going for the rest of my life. Deep appreciation and thanks go to all the loving people in this physical realm and also in the unseen realms who have given me so much support to be where I am today.
Christina Mehew., UK
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