After feeling very tired for a long period, having regular blood tests and visiting my local doctor, I was told to have a colonoscopy. Due to my very low iron levels my doctor felt I could be bleeding internally so I was pleased when I was able to book the colonoscopy for a couple of days later. After the colonoscopy was over I was told that I had bowel cancer. Shock, horror at that word. No one in my family had ever had cancer.
Gradually the diagnosis sank in and I realised I had a choice. I chose to surrender to my body and accept what was happening.
I started questioning how I had lived my life and realised that my body was getting rid of, or clearing, many years of my lack of acceptance of how amazingly divine and gorgeous I am and where I had given my body a hard time in not honouring or respecting it. With hindsight I developed an even greater understanding of this.
However, I realised as soon as I surrendered to the process of being operated on and tidied up the bits and pieces in my life that were incomplete, like my Will, Advanced Care Planning, etc., I felt totally at ease and supported.
So my daughter accompanied me and was by my side until the last stages of preparing for surgery. We had fun not knowing the outcome though having a fairly good prognosis from my surgeon that a small cancerous growth in my ascending colon was to be removed as well as my gall bladder and appendix just in case.
I had never been operated on before so this was a totally new experience for me. My daughter was and is amazing. We have so much love for each other. I was all gowned up and we sang a little song together for her as a keepsake.
“My oh my oh my, you are so beautiful inside. My oh my oh my, you’re my equal on the inside. My oh my oh my, you are so beautiful inside, so sweet, equal beauty on the outside.”
I remember being on the trolley feeling so, so cold and a young doctor kept bringing me warm blankets as I was shivering. She was such a caring and nurturing woman. I felt totally safe in my surgeon’s hands, his team and in the process. Also I had many others supporting from afar; I was feeling totally supported with no fear, just a feeling of being held in love.
Post-surgery and all had gone well but I was super sore in my tummy and had difficulty in moving without pain, but gradually this eased and I was back home with an amazing support team of friends. My son had come back early from his travels in America to be by my side too.
I must make mention of the amazing community I belong to and Serge Benhayon and practitioners of Universal Medicine. My life and the way I live now has been a game changer for me since being introduced to the Ageless Wisdom Teachings.
Even though my diagnosis was a shock I understood that on a deeper level my body and soul were clearing a huge package of disregard. I now understand that illness is a wonderful blessing and an opportunity to take a deeper look at all my movements – what I say, how I express, listening to my body and not overriding it.
Susan C., Australia
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